Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Clarification

So I posted on Facebook yesterday that I was having a bad day and this resulted in a lot of people worrying and wondering about me so I figured I ought to clarify things some.  I wouldn't typically go too much into all this but since I already announced the twin thing on the blog and Facebook world I figured I better follow up with the details.

Yesterday I went and saw my dad at his office to get an ultrasound of the babies and after a few minutes he told me that something was wrong with one of the babies.  It was smaller than the other one and the brain wasn't developing like it should.  Although it still has a heartbeat this one will likely stop developing soon and then just be absorbed.  I am sad that I won't be having twins now (he said there is a tiny chance it could correct itself some and then the child would be born with a severe birth defect but that is pretty rare and will most likely just be fatal before birth). 
The other baby looks to be healthy and strong so we are trying to be grateful for that but I am very disappointed and sad about my other baby.  Its especially hard since I am still carrying both of them so while I am still pregnant with live twins, I am only going to have one baby.  Anyway, I hadn't realize so many people would read so much into my little Facedbook post yesterday so I thought I better answer the questions...
Pray for my other baby to be alrgiht as I am very excited to be pregnant and I count this pregnancy to be a complete miracle.  I am very blessed and thank you guys for your support!

13 comments:

Heather Wheeler said...

Nichole, SO sorry to hear that, My thoughts and prayers are with you guys! And I'm glad you are in Boise being taken care of by your momma!

the mortensen's said...

BLAST! That just plain sucks! But, everything happens for a reason. The same thing happened to my cousin and it turned out in the end if she would have carried twins the whole way it might of killed her because of the complications she had. Not that that helps, but Heavenly Father has a plan. We'll keep you in our prayers! And congrats again on the miracle pregnancy!!!

Rachael said...

So Sorry, Nichole. I can't imagine how hard this must be, even early on. We're thinking about you guys. See you soon.

Crystal said...

Sorry it's going this way. Can't imagine how rough it is for you. Praying for you. :)
love ya girl!

johnandcourtney said...

Don't feel like you should have to feel "ok" with this. It is "ok" to be sad. It is "ok" to be mad. It hurts, and that is "ok" too. I love you. Call me if you want to talk.

Brittany said...

I'm so sorry, Nic. I love you.

Shawn AND Chelsey said...

You are in our thoughts and prayers.

xoxo

Auntie Nancy said...

So sorry to hear your heartbreaking and difficult news Nichole. Uncle Forrest and I will say extra prayers for you and your family tonight.

Rebecca said...

I will be praying for you and your tiny baby. I am so sorry that has got to be hard. I am sure it was hard for your Dad to have to tell you that too. I would love to see you so call me when you are in town.

Sherry said...

That is such disappointing news. It is okay to be sad. Hang in there! We'll keep you in our prayers.

Linley and Austin said...

Oh Nichole, I'm so sorry. I know everything will turn out how it's suppose to be and Heavenly Father is watching over you and your babies. You will be in my prayers.

The Perkinsons said...

Nichole! First of all, I am so glad that you updated your blog! we think about you guys a lot and hope all is going well there in alaska. Im sorry that we missed you the night you were here in AZ- it would have been SO fun to see you. Hopefully we will get that chance sooner than later. Secondly, congratulations about your pregnancy and at the same time I am sorry for complication with one of your babies. It has got to be a really hard position to be in. Excited for a new baby, grieving one baby, and still hoping that all will turn out alright in the end. I Just want you to know that I admire you and you are in our prayers. Keep us posted and we hope to talk to you soon!

Lowders said...

I hope you are doing okay. We love you! And yes, it is hard on your dad to be the bearer of bad news. We think you are awesome! Hang in there!
Love,
Mom